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Step by Step March 24, 2011

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Shots in the dark are still waiting to land. Insurance reconsidered the bill, so they really do owe us money, so that’ll help pay other bills. Another friend considering hiring me for web design. And the gift of a blender from someone who found she did not need to keep hers. A decent week, all in all.

I’ve felt rather fidgety all week. The weather won’t make up its mind if it is spring or not yet. Yesterday, most of all. It went from 70 degrees and sunny, to windy and overcast with tornado watches, to pouring down rain, to hailing, back to 70 degrees and sunny and then down to freezing and snow. I feel like that, too. I’m on the verge of new beginnings, but I keep going backwards or round in circles, not quite ready to take that last, fully committed step into Spring. I still have the lethargy of winter hibernation tugging at me, whispering sweet dreams in my ears, if only I’d lay back down.

So much to do, so little time. I have to wake up now and get moving. Set deadlines, meet goals, create the life I want to live. All that stuff I keep talking about. Time to Do.

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Starting Over September 23, 2010

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We have nearly got all our bills down to reasonable payments, just waiting for the last couple to call us back so we can tell them what we are going to be paying them from here out. All the payments will come out of our HSA, and the deposit each month will be equal to the payments. We have decided to cash in half of our savings to get the car loan fiasco straightened out, we made the mess, we will fix it. So, with everything heading in the right direction, by Wednesday our budget could be balanced again and we can focus on more important things.

Rich is putting out feelers for a better job. I am looking at markets with fresh (if sleepy) eyes. I really enjoy working for Bookup.com and I am hoping we get things moving on an upward slope, business has been going better but there is a lot of work to do. Barnes & Noble is a good company, and all the strange news right now just has to do with stocks, but it may be time for me to move on. I enjoy my schedule and free time it allows, but there could be better things just waiting for me to find them.

Health is going fairly well. Has its ups and downs. Some days I hurt more than others, but nothing like the debilitating pain I used to have. Lower stress and better eating helps so much.

Food of the week: Spelt Pizza topped with tomato sauce, broccoli and spinach

One Step at a Time September 16, 2010

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Rich made the calls yesterday. One bill down, one bill corrected, two bills waiting on approval. The hospital specific bills are still in negotiations. Two weeks after application and the loan rep still has not called us back, but we ran out of time today.

I submitted a story and two queries this week. I have decided to find the joy in my writing again. Remember the fun and not worry about the money. It is clear that my career path to Best Selling Author is going to be a long one, so I might as well enjoy myself along the way. I was only submitting to high paying markets(well, high paying for fantasy fiction) and ignoring the fact that any publicity is good publicity. Sure, I still want to see my name in the glossies, but seeing it in a small run magazine is better than no where at all. So, I’ll be taking another look at markets and possibilities. Amazing what one acceptance will do to flagging enthusiasm.

Work is going alright on all fronts, not great, not stupendous, but it is going steadily. Getting email follow ups cleaned up, gathering ideas for new email campaigns. Fixing up MasterChess 7000 with cool new features. Getting ready for the next big thing for Chess Openings Wizard and Bookup.com. Barnes & Noble is gearing up for the holiday run.

Things are busy and good and looking up. I am so very lucky to have this life.

Back to Normal July 1, 2010

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Rich got out of the hospital on Monday and will be returning to work tomorrow. That puts a lot of things back on track for us. He is back to healing. Our schedules can go back to our usual routines. Paychecks will be coming in as expected. We can get back to looking at car selling/buying and career advancement.

Bookup is starting the new membership launch as I type this. Everything isn’t perfect, but the forum and the membership site is ready for the first wave to enter. Our Professional members first, and then, hopefully with a few bugs caught and squished, the rest of our members tomorrow. He has also added a new chess engine to the program for analysis, that he is very excited about.

I’ve been thinking about my writing a lot lately, and my reading. Lately, I read books for information and I write about my life. I used to read and write for escape, but I find that I am far more satisfied and happy with my life than I ever have been. Nothing is perfect, there are big stresses and little stresses, but I am Happy, with my life, and myself.  Does this mean I won’t write any more fiction, stories about rogues and vampires and death? Not necessarily, but right now, my focus is on other things.

Life is good.

Who am I? January 20, 2010

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What if I’m not who I thought I was? What if everything is different? What if I’m not meant to do what I always thought I was? Where do I go from here?

I find myself wondering about my purpose. I find myself wondering about the phrase “Writers Write” because I don’t really write any more. I mean, I don’t really write stories any more. I write about my life. I write in blogs and journals. I post flash fiction pieces on my website, but they’re not really stories, they’re just snippets that slipped out onto paper during the summer. I submit stories, but they’re old stories and they only garner rejection. I am tired of trying to polish them.

Job. Career. Passion. Purpose. What am I here to do?

New Year. New You. Who am I?